It feels like the past few weeks felt like a breeze and it's funny how I feel like I haven't really accomplished much for this year considering I have a free schedule with the luxury of getting busy on matters that are interesting to me. But now there is that feeling of incompetence I wish not to dwell on further. I ask myself sometimes if I push myself too hard or maybe not at all, which is probably the reason why I feel numb and uber dull. No inspiration to shake me up and no healthy stress either to keep me going. Today was the first time I woke up at 6 am and I'm really wishing I had that jetlag back. I'd rather be asleep at 7 pm and wake up at 4 to 5 am than be in this very dreadful sleeping schedule/rut. Not so productive. I miss yoga.
But anyway, instead of wasting time ranting about how inefficient I feel at the moment, let me focus on the brighter side of things. A new day, a new morning to start things right. (This is why I love mornings so much) Reminds me of all the opportunities waiting to be grabbed, ideas to be shared and inspiration to be acted on. (Forgive the randomness of this post) I just seriously want to get busy (busy in the fulfilling/productive/effective sense) Busy as in, I want t have a challenging schedule that offers me just the right amount of time working on interesting and important things and also the right balance of business and pleasure. Basically what I'm asking for is a healthy schedule for my mind, body and spirit.
I realize for the past few weeks that that only thing that really excites me (aside from the cherry coke from the gas station) is watching Belle du Jour reruns on the internet which I'm not really proud of. (I love the show though, don't get me wrong but that's another story for another day.)
Okay so I've been typing away. I better stop and start my paper which is due on this Saturday's class.
But seriously, why do we feel so dumb and disoriented sometimes? Or maybe it's just me.
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